I started writing this with the intention of posting it on New Years day... Unfortunately, my Wii Balance Board decided that it did not want to cooperate with me. I decided not to change the theme of this post because although it is January 5, I know some people have already forgotten their resolutions from last week. Or already messed up and are saying, 'Oh well, there is always next year, or tomorrow, or next week, or...' We are a society that likes to put off until tomorrow stuff that we should have done yesterday. I am a member of this same society. If I wasn't then the life I am living today would be much different, but I am, and here, and so are you, so let us continue with this belated blog about the new year.
I am not a New Years Resolution person. I don't think that there is any difference between tomorrow, yesterday, or today, except how you see it, how you react to it. The fact that I weighed in today for the first time in 4 months, is purely a coincidence.
It has much more to do with the fact that for the first time in years I have hope for the future, and my potential role in it will be made much easier if I can lose more of this fat that just keeps hanging around.
Up until recently, this journey has been mostly easy. I started walking, bought a Wii, lost 30 lbs. Joined a gym, lost another 4% body fat. I might not have been right on target, but I was doing pretty fabulous.
Then I decided to get a "real" job... I now leave my house at 6:30 in the morning and get home at 6:15 in the evening. While I don't work "in the hood", my office is close enough that it was recommended to me to not walk at my lunch hour. Actually, don't even get out of your car! By the time I get home and find something to eat, or if I am really ambitious, make something actually healthy, I am exhausted and ready for bed. Where am I supposed to fit fitness?
I know... Make the time! It is all so much easier said than done...
I've tried getting up at 5:00 to go to the gym... And I can do it, if I am REALLY committed, but then I feel rushed... Literally 20 - 30 mins to work out after being used to spending hours at the gym... It just doesn't make me feel good like it should... Not enough endorphins released, or something... I'd much rather just throw on my sneakers and head out the door for a long exhausting run that do a bunch of running around... But it is dark, and the road I live on is... well not the safest road to be running on after dark. Not talking about the danger of walking at work dangers, but more like falling into a hole, severely injuring myself, or some other such nonsense and since I am still fighting to recover from my overly ambitious and cocky attitude from those damn tires 8 months ago... Further injury just does not sound like my idea of a good time...
It has much more to do with the fact that for the first time in years I have hope for the future, and my potential role in it will be made much easier if I can lose more of this fat that just keeps hanging around.
Up until recently, this journey has been mostly easy. I started walking, bought a Wii, lost 30 lbs. Joined a gym, lost another 4% body fat. I might not have been right on target, but I was doing pretty fabulous.
Then I decided to get a "real" job... I now leave my house at 6:30 in the morning and get home at 6:15 in the evening. While I don't work "in the hood", my office is close enough that it was recommended to me to not walk at my lunch hour. Actually, don't even get out of your car! By the time I get home and find something to eat, or if I am really ambitious, make something actually healthy, I am exhausted and ready for bed. Where am I supposed to fit fitness?
I know... Make the time! It is all so much easier said than done...
I've tried getting up at 5:00 to go to the gym... And I can do it, if I am REALLY committed, but then I feel rushed... Literally 20 - 30 mins to work out after being used to spending hours at the gym... It just doesn't make me feel good like it should... Not enough endorphins released, or something... I'd much rather just throw on my sneakers and head out the door for a long exhausting run that do a bunch of running around... But it is dark, and the road I live on is... well not the safest road to be running on after dark. Not talking about the danger of walking at work dangers, but more like falling into a hole, severely injuring myself, or some other such nonsense and since I am still fighting to recover from my overly ambitious and cocky attitude from those damn tires 8 months ago... Further injury just does not sound like my idea of a good time...
But I did finally figure out a way to wake up, put on my sneakers, and burn some calories. Just yesterday, I finished setting up my Wii in the main house living room. It is after all where it was set up before I moved into the city. I did try to workout in my apartment on the Wii, I really did, but even after rearranging my bedroom to get more workout room, the best I could manage was about 4' x 6'. Sure I can do push ups, sit ups, etc, but Zumba? Let me tell you it ain't pretty.... So we are set up in the house... I will have to keep it quiet as to not wake everyone up, but I lost the first 15 lbs just like this! I know it works! I know I can do it. And this time around I have a lot more than just Wii Fit to get me going. I am going to have variety in my workout!!! EA Active, My Fitness Coach, Jillian Michaels, Zumba, Wii Fit Plus, and if I just want to have some fun then there is even Wii Sports & Wii Sports Resort.
I have been wishing for some time that my gym did classes, but I guess that is part of the price of a more expensive and bigger gym. I still love my small and intimate gym, just wish I could get there more often.
In the last 2 days, as I have been setting up the Wii, I have decided that I do have classes and no I cannot miss them.. Every morning I will get up for class, every night after getting home I will do class before bed. I can do this. I will do this.
My friends from Lose It are rallying around me once more, and in actuality, they never left. They were there, waiting for me to come back. Waiting to enfold me back into the love and hope and encouragement to keep moving forward. And my Loser friends that have moved into my 'real' life??? Are more than any person should have a right to expect. It is absolutely amazing the love that I have received as I have moved closer to this day over the last several weeks.
So today is my re-commitment to a healthier me, because after all that is what I want to be right? Not a Barbie doll, but to be beautiful to my groom on my wedding day, to be able to present him with a beautiful and even more healthy baby? I know that this all can't happen overnight, but someday, I want to have it all, so today, this is what I can do, this is what I will do, this is what I must do!!!!
Weighed in this morning.... Let's just leave it at this is the highest weight ever entered into Lose It.... But it is not my highest weight ever so I can come back from it!
I will start logging my meals better
I will start exercising for 1 hour a day
I will start posting more often than once in the last six months
I will keep moving forward
